Going to chinatown 1 week before cny is totally 跟自己过不去 then go there commit suicide. Wa, it's freaking crowded yesterday. much much much more. the trip with lisa, zhitao, shermaine and ruxin was better, not crowded at all. It's really people mountain people sea over there. I was being pushed around, then the stall holders all shouting with microphones. Somemore there's very sweaty people. haha. worst part, there's nothing much to see.
Thenthen and then, i saw 1 auntie walk past a jelly stall( a lot people buying and looking at jellies), so, she just took 1 jelly from the stall and walked away. Bet there's still more people who does that. Sad lah. hahaha.

Went to give free oranges to people at the foodcourt next to church. Some said thankyou happily, some gave that uh-dont-want-lah-later-need-to-pay-money look, some you give them no expression, mumble mumble, i think it's thank you lah. But still, very heartbroken eh, somemore have to smile smile and smile. My face smile until 抽筋.

Learnt a lesson. Aiye, cant hope too much for anything, the more you hope for, the bigger the disappointment. Told myself this for countless times and to learn from it. But im dumb enough to repeat the same mistakes over and over again. Serve me right. Don't think i'll ever learn from it. Ha, sad that im born stupid.

felt better after going out with jiaying, ruxin and yunxuan yesterday. Plus today's fun with lisa and liying too(: bought new clothes for cny. ahahahahahah.

It's so frustrating to see things the same way when it just started to get better. Whatever.

What's wrong with getting a higher grade for a subject that im not very good in? What's wrong for saying something that was meant as an opinion? What's wrong for working so hard when nothing gets better? What's wrong with everything, or is it just my own problem? You tell me.

Can't help it.

La Danse Finale' 10 is history. But, really, it was a great experience. My memory of El Ministrel was vague, nothing much. La Danse was wonderful. After months of hardwork( i guess so) and all, La Danse ended pretty well yesterday. SO HAPPY. Yihao said that it was good. HAHA. A big thank you to those who came yesterday.

Got so high yesterday. Joyann snatched my lollipops, ahhhh. But she gave me the best hug ever! Sylvia's one was also nice(: Section talk and went home still very high. Then talked on the phone with morris till 1plus. hahahahaha.

HORNS! I HAVE A DATE WITH YOU GUYS AFTER CHINESE NEW YEAR CELEBRATION(:
we rock ahband.

I'm always always hoping for a better day. But it doesn't seem so. At least for now.